Seriously Stalled Out

I am struggling pretty heavily this week with wanting to work out.  The motivation is lacking.  It's the same ol' same ol'. . .. . don't want to work out, but feel crappy if I don't work out.  But I'm up against the same wall!!!  Working out is good for me, I know, but the changes are SOOOOO slow it's criminal.  Absolutely criminal.  It almost makes it feel NOT worth it, when it's such a damn insane hideously slow process to see ANY rewards for my efforts.

This is the old way of thinking creeping up on me.  It's pretty damn strong, I'm telling you right now.  REALLY hard to get around.  REALLY. REALLY. REALLY hard.

I'm not a workout fiend.  I mean, I feel better for having done it - but my experience with working out hard or faithfully, hoping for results. ... .  and then not seeing them is so discouraging as to ruin any good feelings I get from doing it at all.   I mean, it's like washing your hair but your hair is still just as dirty as it was before you took the trouble to wash it.  What is the use in making the effort for something if NOTHING happens??

Really struggling.  I look in the mirror - nothing seems different.  I wear the same clothes - nothing fits looser.  WTH!!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Hope I feel better about all this soon.  In the meantime. . . . . I'll sit here and feel crappy about not wanting to work out and feeling like even if I DO work out, nothing changes.

Bleckk.