I know you're in there somewhere, I can feel you. And I know that you are getting stronger, b/c I am better able to complete more reps each week doing Ab Ripper X, especially the moves that you once said, 'no way, not happenin' about. So, please, please - do a girl a favor and show yourself soon!
Okay so enough of my love letter to my abs. (hidden as they may be - ha!) The rest of me needs to catch up also, b/c the rest of me is going to be sporting a swimsuit on the beach for about 4 days in two weeks. While I am very excited about this little mini-vaca b/c it promises relaxation, sun, sand, boating and jet-skiing...... . I am also experiencing the usual 'stage fright' and anxiety about wearing next to nothing in public!! In bright, unforgiving sunlight no less! Aaargh. So just give me another 6 months and I'll be ready!! OH wait. Six months from now the lake will be frozen over. Riiiiight.
Such a catch-22. What's a girl to do?! Guess I will have to work even harder the next two weeks, to see if I can't bring about more changes. Yes, I can see it now. ... every time I feel my muscles burning and filling up with lactic acid and I want to stop from the pain. .. . I will push on for a few more reps b/c I will envision myself practically naked in the bright, bright sunlight.
Oh yeah, and I'd better see about getting a tan, too. Haven't decided whether that will be a spray-on tan, or the real thing. I have reservations about the real thing b/c I'm so fair I'm convinced I'm a poster child for skin cancer if I court the real thing. But tan fat definitely looks less hideous than white fat..... . so some kind of 'tan' is not really an option. Must. Happen.
Eating well is definitely just a habit these days, and that really feels good. I'm not going to be so rigid that I'll never go out to lunch with friends or coworkers or have dinner with a good girlfriend and not eat normal stuff (like sushi and wine! yay!). I mean, nobody's perfect and I know there will be times that I will eat an 'off' meal, and that's okay. As long as it's every once in a while and not every day of course! But get this.. .. . .last weekend I suggested to my husband that we go get a late lunch at Pepperjax - one of our fave places (Philly cheesesteaks to die for!). So we headed up there on the motorcycle (sweating to death the whole way b/c it was 5,000 degrees Farenheit, which is par for the course every day lately) and I told myself, Wow, it would be soooooooo easy to just fall into the old mindset of 'I can indulge this one time and it won't be that bad/hurt me.' (in other words and in this instance that would mean having a whole sandwich and fries with that.) But then.... I thought of my hard work and all the eating right that I do on a daily basis, and I also thought about how SLOW this process has been as far as my body adapting and showing changes.. .... why would I want to set myself back that drastically?! I think I looked up the nutrition info on the full sandwich and fries once (Weight Watchers style, so in points) and to do both would be about, oh, 25 points. Which is more than a whole day's worth of points if you're doing WW! So obviously, as yummy as this stuff is, it's killer fattening!!!
My husband can down it (two sandwiches sometimes, in fact!!) and it's no biggie. He's 6'2" and Mr. Lean with great cholesterol and overall health despite his penchant for red meat, eggs, bacon/sausage, butter, and everything else you think would have his cholesterol climbing. He's also a 'guy' (no, really? I would have thought this was obvious Anj?!! lol) which means his body stores fat a lot less easily than mine! So me + killer fattening = fat me. Not so good for me or the ol' self-esteem! So I told myself that I would have half a sandwich (Hooverville could have the other half, b/c usually I give him whatever I can't finish on my plate anyway!) and maybe pick at a couple of his fries but NOT get my own order of fries.
What's funny about this scenario is that when we walked in to the place and got up to the counter to order (they cook it in front of you) THERE'S A P90X INFOMERCIAL ON THE OVERHEAD TV!!!!! How's that for irony!!? How's that for my little hint of the day, saying, "Good job girl, only do half the sandwich instead of pigging out today!!! EVERY day is a choice to keep choosing healthy!!"
Life is such irony sometimes. I have to say I wasn't even faltering or severly wavering in my resolve ..... . but to have that, of all things, on the TV at that restaurant precisely when I am there ordering... .... well... .. . I'll let you take your own meaning out of that. :)
Sincerely,
Planning to Keep Bringing It
(or there is a very public hell to pay when I hit the beach!! Oh the PRESSURE!! lol)
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